Saturday, April 28, 2012

random writings. about my dream future. :)


*it may look daunting but i think it actually may be worth reading... haha it's up to you!*

I don't know. A while ago i was thinking about my future and what i want to do with my life, and i decided that i want to do something great. I don't want to be a hero. I don't want to be a celebrity. I simply want my family and friends to be proud of me and respect me. And not to just respect me because i work at some fancy place or have some high paying job; I want to be respected for who I am and what I've done.
I want my grand kids to brag about me. I want them to tell their friends what I did, and how they want to be like me when they grow up. I want my name to be written on the sheets they have at school that ask "who's your hero?" by my great grand kids. I want my legend to live on. I want my kids to do great things too.
I don't know what kind of great things i'm going to do yet, but i'm sure as heck gonna do them. Why just live? There are people surrounding us everyday who don't have enough money to pay for food and shelter for their families. There are people who don't even have homes, and they sit there on the side of the road, whether 100 degrees or -10 degrees, and simply ask for a few dollars or a pair of socks. They don't ask for houses, they don't ask for hundreds of dollars, all they ask for are the necessities to live. Many times we drive by and we just think, "oh, there's another gross hobo." and give it no more thought. What are we?!?! Are we any better than them? We're humans, they're humans. Life just went a little better for us and we're lucky to be able to afford food and houses. These people can't even afford a blanket.
They aren't poorly raised, nasty, disease-filled creatures. They're people just like us. they don't have homes to shower in, they don't have money to buy food to eat, and they don't have any shelters. You think they want to live on the streets? I mean i know there are some people who choose that way of life but there are others who would rather be any other place. believe me.
I want to go work at a ministry that helps homeless people. I want to hear their stories and document them. i want to help them. I can't explain it there's just this big bubble inside of me that grows and wants to be let out every time i think about it. Just the thought of being able to positively affect someones life, even just one person, it's.... it's wonderful.
Another thing I've been dreaming about the past two years is going on a mission trip. I want to go to Africa or Haiti or somewhere and live with the people. Maybe help teach a school. Just spend time with them and learn their way of life and live it with them. Befriend all of the kids, spending time everyday teaching them a sport or playing with them. It's this thing in me that i just like crave that so badly. it sounds stupid to most people. Why would you want to go starve yourself and live in a hut with a dirt floor? Most teenagers want to meet Josh Hutcherson or something :p (i mean yeah that would be cool... haha but tbh i'd rather meet Jennifer Lawrence. i think we'd be like immediate best friends. And i have a mini girl-crush on her) But me? no. If i had a choice of staying in the world's finest hotel and meeting any celebrity i want or going to go live in Africa as a native for a month I know which one i'd choose. The one that would make a difference in my life. Not a "ooh i got to touch Johnny Depp!" difference, a real deep difference in my heart. i'd have a better understanding of what's going on around me. I'd have a connection with children over there. i may even get to teach them about God. 

So yea. i'll stop boring you now. Just kinda felt like writing that... :)

 xoxo
Alyssa

14 comments:

Sherry said...

I love this. I pray God gives you the desires of your heart. You are a sweet, special person and I'm sure
you will be a blessing to many lives. Thank you for sharing this. Very inspiring :-)

Nay said...

wow. you're truly amazing. i wish i could've thought all of this up first, lol. i'm sure you'll succeed in doing all of this plus more :) hugs <3, nay

KaseyQ said...

You. are. awesome. I'm so glad you have this desire this early on in life!! You remind me of Anne Hathaway's character in The Princess Diaries- you want to change the world. One thing I've learned, however, is that sometimes God has His own plans for us, and while they might not seem as grand as our ideas, they are exactly what He wants for us, and as long as we make the most of what He gives us, we will be fulfilled. I always had plans of traveling the world and doing big things- I haven't gotten farther than a trip to the Bahamas, and I got married and had a family instead. Now I'm a stay-at-home mom raising 3- soon to be 4- kids, and I'm finding ways to change my own little corner of the world, even if it's just helping my kids to dream big and be better people. :-)

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Brooke said...

Such a nice post :) I agree with you. You know, some people want to live in cubicles, on boats, or far away. All of those choices are fine, but they are choices, and we make them.

I love that you want to help and teach people about the homeless. I think it's wonderful to help those less fortunate. My heart always sinks when I see people or domestic animals on the street. :(

I'm an agnostic, but I do agree that we should give people hope and help them learn how to fulfill their dreams c:

xoxo
~Brooke {via The Dove Tree}

Jenn said...

This is an amazing list, and don't let your age stop you from doing any of those things right now, this year.
Volunteer at a homeless shelter, figure out what you need to do to go on a mission trip and do it! And then just keep dreaming of bigger and better things to do!

Anonymous said...

This is why I love you. You know I would do anything ANYTIME to help you out, with your dreams. I think about how if you leave, and go to Africa, or Haiti, or some foreign place, and I get really.... I don't know. Almost empty feeling. Even though your not even gone yet.... But I have known for years that these things are the true desire of your heart, and where God has blessed you. And then I start thinking, "well, I would miss her, but I know she's changing the world for the better for somebody else". And then I feel so happy. Because that's MY best frined. MINE. And she's changing someone's world. And (I know we're not supposed to be) but I feel pride. Pride in you, my dear rondouggie. I'm proud of you. And I love you so so much. :) keep living for God, sweet one.

--me.

BTW: see you tonight ;) haha

Anonymous said...

wow i want to go over to africa and help them too. when im older that is
ps i would also love to met josh hutcherson though

Flotsam Friends said...

What a truly inspiring post. Keep them coming. Kindest, Pruxxx

Flotsam Friends said...

What a truly inspiring post. Keep them coming. Kindest, Pruxxx

Flotsam Friends said...

What a truly inspiring post. Keep them coming. Kindest, Pruxxx

Flotsam Friends said...

What a truly inspiring post. Keep them coming. Kindest, Pruxxx

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Flotsam Friends said...

Sorry!!! Something weird just happened on my blog!!! That's how inspiring you are. Px