Prolife Bootcamp Journal Part 1

As i said in my last post... I went to a Prolife Bootcamp this last Wednesday night - Saturday night. I guess I'll just let myself free and write whatever i think of haha :)

So I had like 6 friends who were going and they had all attended the year before and they really loved it. To me it sounded like a kinda lame weekend full of sitting, listening, getting like no sleep, and a bunch of information i already know. Not exactly what I wanted to spend 4 days doing. But I really don't know what i was thinking and i just said I'd do it to get them all to shut up about it. :p

i found this to be very true!

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Then next thing I know it's Wednesday at 5 pm an hour before we need to be there and i'm not packed or anything. I'm what you'd call a procrastination queen ;). So i packed and we drove to the Church and did some icebreakers and then we were broken up into our 'small groups' that we'd be doing a lot of stuff with all week. I somehow managed to get in a group with none of my friends. Yeah. My luck. But then I was thinking about it and I decided that it was obviously God's plan and there was going to be some good coming out of it. :) But that first night we literally did EVERYTHING with our small group and i never got to talk to any of my friends and i was scared that the whole weekend would be like that!

i want these pajamas so badly. anyone feel like getting me them?! :D

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 So on Wednesday we split into our guy/girl rooms and all the girls went to brush their teeth and put pjs on. Okay you all know i'm homeschooled right? Yeah i've never really had to take my makeup off and be in my pjs around a bunch of girls that i don't know. I mean it wasn't bad except here's the deal... out of idk... maybe 20 girls there were THREE of us who wore makeup. Everyone else was that obnoxious natural beautiful with absolutely perfect skin. So I was scared that i was going to look like some horrid zombie and scare them all. The next day i learned that these girls are all just such wonderful people. They really are. They never once judged any of us and i don't know how to explain it they're all just so nice and loving. :)

So we did our night prayer and went to bed at midnight (which is the official lights out for everyone)

part 2 coming soon :p

random writings. about my dream future. :)

*it may look daunting but i think it actually may be worth reading... haha it's up to you!*

I don't know. A while ago i was thinking about my future and what i want to do with my life, and i decided that i want to do something great. I don't want to be a hero. I don't want to be a celebrity. I simply want my family and friends to be proud of me and respect me. And not to just respect me because i work at some fancy place or have some high paying job; I want to be respected for who I am and what I've done.

I want my grand kids to brag about me. I want them to tell their friends what I did, and how they want to be like me when they grow up. I want my name to be written on the sheets they have at school that ask "who's your hero?" by my great grand kids. I want my legend to live on. I want my kids to do great things too.

I don't know what kind of great things i'm going to do yet, but i'm sure as heck gonna do them. Why just live? There are people surrounding us everyday who don't have enough money to pay for food and shelter for their families. There are people who don't even have homes, and they sit there on the side of the road, whether 100 degrees or -10 degrees, and simply ask for a few dollars or a pair of socks. They don't ask for houses, they don't ask for hundreds of dollars, all they ask for are the necessities to live. Many times we drive by and we just think, "oh, there's another gross hobo." and give it no more thought. What are we?!?! Are we any better than them? We're humans, they're humans. Life just went a little better for us and we're lucky to be able to afford food and houses. These people can't even afford a blanket.

They aren't poorly raised, nasty, disease-filled creatures. They're people just like us. they don't have homes to shower in, they don't have money to buy food to eat, and they don't have any shelters. You think they want to live on the streets? I mean i know there are some people who choose that way of life but there are others who would rather be any other place. believe me.

I want to go work at a ministry that helps homeless people. I want to hear their stories and document them. i want to help them. I can't explain it there's just this big bubble inside of me that grows and wants to be let out every time i think about it. Just the thought of being able to positively affect someones life, even just one person, it's.... it's wonderful.

Another thing I've been dreaming about the past two years is going on a mission trip. I want to go to Africa or Haiti or somewhere and live with the people. Maybe help teach a school. Just spend time with them and learn their way of life and live it with them. Befriend all of the kids, spending time everyday teaching them a sport or playing with them. It's this thing in me that i just like crave that so badly. it sounds stupid to most people. Why would you want to go starve yourself and live in a hut with a dirt floor? Most teenagers want to meet Josh Hutcherson or something :p (i mean yeah that would be cool... haha but tbh i'd rather meet Jennifer Lawrence. i think we'd be like immediate best friends. And i have a mini girl-crush on her) But me? no. If i had a choice of staying in the world's finest hotel and meeting any celebrity i want or going to go live in Africa as a native for a month I know which one i'd choose. The one that would make a difference in my life. Not a "ooh i got to touch Johnny Depp!" difference, a real deep difference in my heart. i'd have a better understanding of what's going on around me. I'd have a connection with children over there. i may even get to teach them about God. 

So yea. i'll stop boring you now. Just kinda felt like writing that... :)

 xoxo

Alyssa

//it's BLOOPER time//

ohhh yes we do, don't we? :) here are all the bloopers from Sophie and I's first photoshoot. haha {here are HER pictures and MY pictures}

"I WORK OUTTTTTT"

bored.

hehe it's the snazzy bump-it picture ;)

awkwardddddd!!!!

*there was a fuzzy. that looked nasty.*

haha most of these are like us singing... we had the radio blasting the whole time so we'd randomly break out in the midst of a picture :p

mah friend called.... hehe

i love you sophie. you're awesome. jussayin.

oh yeah. super hot when the wind blows your hair in your face, right?! ;)

*IT'S SOO COLDDDD!!!!*

toldja.

*basking in the sun*

yeahhhh she couldn't do the trick that you close your eyes and then open them and i take the picture {used for when facing the sun}. but hey, i can do it :)

"oh lookie! it's a tree! and it has BARK!!!"

in our defense it was like 30 degrees outside.

my right eye decided to dweeb-eye on me. so kind of you -.-

this is me. like 24/7. if you know me you know it's true. haha

it's almost kinda... scary! lol

the cat hated her. hehe i got the good pics :D

haha this is like... US.

*what the heck stupid flowers go die in a hole. you're poking my leg -.-*

let's just say that pose didn't really... work.

there was mud on it.... and i thought it was cat poo.

haha singing to Domino

my room was a horrific mess. there's my math book.... and great grandma's jewelry box... and a bunch of props and school books and a bible. and clothes.

taken right before she almost killed both of us and ruined my mom's furniture. lol. she pushed the shelf part off on accident and we both just sat there stunned as it started toppling over. somehow it stayed up by itself though. haha

hehe texting her mom. homeschoolers are so cool ;)

i don't even wanna know what i was doing...

i got tired of messing with them and threw them at the wall. :)

once again.... bad prop. they kept getting tangled lol

Well thanks for reading guys! hope you enjoyed the bloopers :)