random writings. about my dream future. :)

*it may look daunting but i think it actually may be worth reading... haha it's up to you!*

I don't know. A while ago i was thinking about my future and what i want to do with my life, and i decided that i want to do something great. I don't want to be a hero. I don't want to be a celebrity. I simply want my family and friends to be proud of me and respect me. And not to just respect me because i work at some fancy place or have some high paying job; I want to be respected for who I am and what I've done.

I want my grand kids to brag about me. I want them to tell their friends what I did, and how they want to be like me when they grow up. I want my name to be written on the sheets they have at school that ask "who's your hero?" by my great grand kids. I want my legend to live on. I want my kids to do great things too.

I don't know what kind of great things i'm going to do yet, but i'm sure as heck gonna do them. Why just live? There are people surrounding us everyday who don't have enough money to pay for food and shelter for their families. There are people who don't even have homes, and they sit there on the side of the road, whether 100 degrees or -10 degrees, and simply ask for a few dollars or a pair of socks. They don't ask for houses, they don't ask for hundreds of dollars, all they ask for are the necessities to live. Many times we drive by and we just think, "oh, there's another gross hobo." and give it no more thought. What are we?!?! Are we any better than them? We're humans, they're humans. Life just went a little better for us and we're lucky to be able to afford food and houses. These people can't even afford a blanket.

They aren't poorly raised, nasty, disease-filled creatures. They're people just like us. they don't have homes to shower in, they don't have money to buy food to eat, and they don't have any shelters. You think they want to live on the streets? I mean i know there are some people who choose that way of life but there are others who would rather be any other place. believe me.

I want to go work at a ministry that helps homeless people. I want to hear their stories and document them. i want to help them. I can't explain it there's just this big bubble inside of me that grows and wants to be let out every time i think about it. Just the thought of being able to positively affect someones life, even just one person, it's.... it's wonderful.

Another thing I've been dreaming about the past two years is going on a mission trip. I want to go to Africa or Haiti or somewhere and live with the people. Maybe help teach a school. Just spend time with them and learn their way of life and live it with them. Befriend all of the kids, spending time everyday teaching them a sport or playing with them. It's this thing in me that i just like crave that so badly. it sounds stupid to most people. Why would you want to go starve yourself and live in a hut with a dirt floor? Most teenagers want to meet Josh Hutcherson or something :p (i mean yeah that would be cool... haha but tbh i'd rather meet Jennifer Lawrence. i think we'd be like immediate best friends. And i have a mini girl-crush on her) But me? no. If i had a choice of staying in the world's finest hotel and meeting any celebrity i want or going to go live in Africa as a native for a month I know which one i'd choose. The one that would make a difference in my life. Not a "ooh i got to touch Johnny Depp!" difference, a real deep difference in my heart. i'd have a better understanding of what's going on around me. I'd have a connection with children over there. i may even get to teach them about God. 

So yea. i'll stop boring you now. Just kinda felt like writing that... :)

 xoxo

Alyssa