What should I do?

I (totally and completely obviously) haven't been posting like... at all recently. sometimes I forget I even still have a blog. I know, I know. Don't judgeth me.

I had a super busy summer filled with 96 hours of volunteering and many MANY more of volleyball. I went on a retreat and started school the day after, two weeks ago. I've been doing pretty well. It's my first year of highschool and volleyball practices are at 2, 30 minutes away from my house. So I was worried about doing school at 5 and 6 at night. But so far I've been doing well and getting it done before practices. Though next year I won't be able to for sure, so I hope they change the practice times!!

I kinda quit taking pictures, taking care of my cat, working out, cleaning my room... I think you get the picture. I was pretty much dropping out of life. Well.... okay so friends, volunteering and volleyball were my life.

BUT THEN>>>

yeah nothing happened. well something happened but I know not what. I started getting more crafty, started etsy stalking, making things, cleaning, doing school and being responsible. Yeah then like all my friends dropped out of my life. I'm not sure if it's just school or what but ... yeah they're like all gone. I'm not positive what to think of it. Nothing happened, but people just stopped talking to me. And I'm not the annoying type so I haven't bothered them.

And I have no idea where I was going with this, but a life update I guess. OHHHH yeah never mind.

ADD sorry.

So I've been thinking about my blog more, and I want to start up again. Do something new.  A fresh start.

But even though I'm pretty sure I've already basically lost you all, I don't want to lose my nearly 400 followers I spent so much time and money trying to get. But I can't transfer them to a new blog and I don't really want to have to start over all anew.

MEH.

What do YOU think I should do?? Would you come join me on my new blog? Yay? Neigh? (and yes I know that's not how you spell them)

The end.

Love y'all.


If you're still reading this... thank you. And triple thank you if you comment. :)


<3 Alyssa - the long lost blogger

Cheesecake :)

just poppin in... :) i'm going to have my dad help me figure out how to get the videos to upload that way i can start vlogging a lot more!

xx

A

random writings. about my dream future. :)

*it may look daunting but i think it actually may be worth reading... haha it's up to you!*

I don't know. A while ago i was thinking about my future and what i want to do with my life, and i decided that i want to do something great. I don't want to be a hero. I don't want to be a celebrity. I simply want my family and friends to be proud of me and respect me. And not to just respect me because i work at some fancy place or have some high paying job; I want to be respected for who I am and what I've done.

I want my grand kids to brag about me. I want them to tell their friends what I did, and how they want to be like me when they grow up. I want my name to be written on the sheets they have at school that ask "who's your hero?" by my great grand kids. I want my legend to live on. I want my kids to do great things too.

I don't know what kind of great things i'm going to do yet, but i'm sure as heck gonna do them. Why just live? There are people surrounding us everyday who don't have enough money to pay for food and shelter for their families. There are people who don't even have homes, and they sit there on the side of the road, whether 100 degrees or -10 degrees, and simply ask for a few dollars or a pair of socks. They don't ask for houses, they don't ask for hundreds of dollars, all they ask for are the necessities to live. Many times we drive by and we just think, "oh, there's another gross hobo." and give it no more thought. What are we?!?! Are we any better than them? We're humans, they're humans. Life just went a little better for us and we're lucky to be able to afford food and houses. These people can't even afford a blanket.

They aren't poorly raised, nasty, disease-filled creatures. They're people just like us. they don't have homes to shower in, they don't have money to buy food to eat, and they don't have any shelters. You think they want to live on the streets? I mean i know there are some people who choose that way of life but there are others who would rather be any other place. believe me.

I want to go work at a ministry that helps homeless people. I want to hear their stories and document them. i want to help them. I can't explain it there's just this big bubble inside of me that grows and wants to be let out every time i think about it. Just the thought of being able to positively affect someones life, even just one person, it's.... it's wonderful.

Another thing I've been dreaming about the past two years is going on a mission trip. I want to go to Africa or Haiti or somewhere and live with the people. Maybe help teach a school. Just spend time with them and learn their way of life and live it with them. Befriend all of the kids, spending time everyday teaching them a sport or playing with them. It's this thing in me that i just like crave that so badly. it sounds stupid to most people. Why would you want to go starve yourself and live in a hut with a dirt floor? Most teenagers want to meet Josh Hutcherson or something :p (i mean yeah that would be cool... haha but tbh i'd rather meet Jennifer Lawrence. i think we'd be like immediate best friends. And i have a mini girl-crush on her) But me? no. If i had a choice of staying in the world's finest hotel and meeting any celebrity i want or going to go live in Africa as a native for a month I know which one i'd choose. The one that would make a difference in my life. Not a "ooh i got to touch Johnny Depp!" difference, a real deep difference in my heart. i'd have a better understanding of what's going on around me. I'd have a connection with children over there. i may even get to teach them about God. 

So yea. i'll stop boring you now. Just kinda felt like writing that... :)

 xoxo

Alyssa

7 Things: a Q&A post :)

 It's a Saturday. One of those lazy ones that you just lay around all day. Everyone in my family is gone somewhere... flower shopping or something. So I'm sitting here listening to Pandora (one direction ;) and i decided to do a quick post. happy birthday :D 

(all the questions via Gentri Lee)

 Funny Photo of myself:

(from a bad photoshoot i need to edit and post...)

 1. Would you rather your life be a constant vacation or always stay home?

Constant vacation. They both have their ups and downs but considering I'm home schooled.... I'm already home all the time :) And i never want to come home when we're on vacay!

2. What is your favorite book?

hmm... Hunger Games/Catching Fire or Life as We Knew It :)

3. You have to be on a reality tv show - which would you choose?

i don't really watch any... but if Design Star counts as reality-ish ( i mean come on there's a lot of drama!) that would be my choice. I'd fail though :)

4. What is your favorite form of exercise?

Well. Hm. I don't know... just like doing the little stuff that adds up. Like pushups and crunches, you know? 

5. What is one thing you've never tried but you're convinced you hate? (food activities etc)

Something I've never tried? I don't really hate a lot of stuff i haven't tried. But i'll say liver or any organ lol :p

6. Do you have any hidden talents?

if i told you they wouldn't be really hidden anymore, would they now? ;) haha okay honest truth. No. Not really. I'm not really good at anything so ... yeah :)

7.What's the best prank you've ever pulled?

Okay. Actually it's a really long one and I'm still playing it ;p

 So I have two friends who are brothers. And I told them that one of my other really good friends asked me out and we're dating. So i originally told them this on April Fools as an April fools joke, and when i told them they were like in MAJOR shock! It was hilarious. so then i told them it was all a joke and stuff. But then I told my friend (who i was supposedly dating) and he said let's go for it and keep the prank going. So then I told them that I only said it was a joke because they sounded mad and like they didn't like the fact that two of their friends were going out. ;p So my friend (the one i'm "dating") and I are both playing up on the joke by talking to the brothers and being like "oh my gosh i love soandso so much and we went on a date and it was so much fun and we're going to the movies next week!!!" Haha. It is awesome. And actually... we're all going to a dance tonight and I guess this'll be the first time we're actually going to have to act like we're dating in person. I have no clue when the joke will be over but when they find out it was all a joke they are going to be SO mad :D It is awesome. 

oh and a sidenote is that all of our friends know it's a joke but them. So they all play with it too and even my mom knows haha :) It's so much fun!!!

so i guess that's it for today :)

xoxo

Aly

i made a vlog?!

yeah. i did. actually i made like 5. and they're pretty embarassing. but that's just me... so i guess i'll just be open with you and let you see them.

one thing i ask: please don't judge me

i know i'm insane

and completely awkard

and homeschooled

and tired.

oh and i have a double chin in one of the videos... 'cool points' for whoever actually watches all the videos and can tell me which one i have the biggest double chin in ;)

anddd..... yeah. they're just kinda weird.

or i'm just kinda weird.

and blogger isn't letting me upload them and i have no clue why.

thank you blogger.

no, i don't want a youtube account.

now please just let me upload my videos.

the only issue that is occuring is your lameness.

sorry, personal oppinion. :)

if anyone knows why it's not working let me know :)

and because like always... a post isn't a post without a picture--- i give you *drumroll*:

my friendship bracelet collection so far. haha i've made some more since... i'll show you them soon :)

super sorry about the wait on the video... i'll have my dad help me tonight!

peace out...

Aly

//what's a directioner?//

DIRECTIONER: a person avidly obsessed with One Direction.

Now, I am NOT a directioner. Yet. I'm getting there though, unfortunately ;p Now, if you're old or just totally out of it, you may not even know what One Direction is. Let me introduce you:

Source: bit.ly via Sierra on Pinterest

an apology and a bunch of other depressing stuff you should probably read...

hey there. i am sorry for not posting like at all. and for lame posts when i do post.

it's not my fault. i've lost my inspiration and drive i guess. it's kinda bugging me. and on top of that i have major insane intense school and i've been doing a lot of activities and stuff recently. so my life is full.

basically i feel like it's a job now. a job with no pay. i have sponsors this month and i'm going to try to get them some views so that they don't regret buying sponsorship but basically i'm going to take a break after that. i don't really enjoy doing it anymore, it feels forced, and i have a real life to attend to.

so a break i shall take. i can't tell you how long it's going to be. maybe putting the stress off my shoulders will let me miss it and want it back. or maybe i'll just give it up forever. sorry to dissapoint you all if i do.

when i started blogging for real i was on top of the world... i seriously thought i'd be blogging through college and into my old age ;p i thought it would never be forced and i didn't understand how it was possible to run out of post ideas. but i did. i ran out of tutorials, creativity, and inspiration. it's pretty lame. sorry about that... anyone know a cure? :)

i'll still be updating my blog now and then. adding pictures i've taken and what not. my final room makeover... idk. i'm tired of worrying about the stress of "must link up and get XXX pageviews every day!"

so good bye for now... please accept my apology!

xoxo
Alyssa

//it's BLOOPER time//

ohhh yes we do, don't we? :) here are all the bloopers from Sophie and I's first photoshoot. haha {here are HER pictures and MY pictures}

"I WORK OUTTTTTT"

bored.

hehe it's the snazzy bump-it picture ;)

awkwardddddd!!!!

*there was a fuzzy. that looked nasty.*

haha most of these are like us singing... we had the radio blasting the whole time so we'd randomly break out in the midst of a picture :p

mah friend called.... hehe

i love you sophie. you're awesome. jussayin.

oh yeah. super hot when the wind blows your hair in your face, right?! ;)

*IT'S SOO COLDDDD!!!!*

toldja.

*basking in the sun*

yeahhhh she couldn't do the trick that you close your eyes and then open them and i take the picture {used for when facing the sun}. but hey, i can do it :)

"oh lookie! it's a tree! and it has BARK!!!"

in our defense it was like 30 degrees outside.

my right eye decided to dweeb-eye on me. so kind of you -.-

this is me. like 24/7. if you know me you know it's true. haha

it's almost kinda... scary! lol

the cat hated her. hehe i got the good pics :D

haha this is like... US.

*what the heck stupid flowers go die in a hole. you're poking my leg -.-*

let's just say that pose didn't really... work.

there was mud on it.... and i thought it was cat poo.

haha singing to Domino

my room was a horrific mess. there's my math book.... and great grandma's jewelry box... and a bunch of props and school books and a bible. and clothes.

taken right before she almost killed both of us and ruined my mom's furniture. lol. she pushed the shelf part off on accident and we both just sat there stunned as it started toppling over. somehow it stayed up by itself though. haha

hehe texting her mom. homeschoolers are so cool ;)

i don't even wanna know what i was doing...

i got tired of messing with them and threw them at the wall. :)

once again.... bad prop. they kept getting tangled lol

Well thanks for reading guys! hope you enjoyed the bloopers :)